This is a strange point in my life, I feel somewhat unsteady on my feet, self-confident but not, in control but spiraling out of it. And oh my gosh I hate to even say this because it sounds so ridiculous but I feel misunderstood.
For many years I have prided myself on admitting mistakes (of which there are many), taking responsibility, and have been a strong believer in being open. In fact - sometimes I think - too open. Applying for the job I have now it's one thing I repeated to several people - with me, what you see is what you get. I don't play games, I say what I mean and I'm not one to say what I think people want to hear. That's not to say I just say anything - I recognize there is a time and a place for everything.
So .. what to do when it seems other influences would like me to change the very essence of myself? Because I don't know how to be anything but real. And grammatically correct or not, communication has always been one of my strengths.
You look in the mirror every day and you see yourself a certain way. It's disorienting when others don't recognize that person - is you. Or maybe they recognize that person - they just don't like who they see.