Sunday, August 9, 2015
Where does your brain go when your doctor says it's cancer?
My doctor didn't use the word cancer. Neither did I. He said adenocarcinoma and I said what do I need to do? My brain pushed the word away while simultaneously digesting it and rushing to next steps. Let's not dwell on what, let's concentrate on what to do about it.
I remember my stomach dropping and my eyes filling with tears, but I also remember pushing that away with an urgency to get beyond REacting to get to actually acting. WHAT NEXT?
People all react differently I imagine. And I'm equally sure their reaction is colored by what kind of
So am I a cancer survivor? I suppose. But it's embarrassing to say that considering what so many others have gone through. It was all over so fast because I wanted it to be, and I barely allowed myself to think about it AS cancer. Now that it's past and the only remaining reminder is the difference in my digestion, I don't HAVE to think about it.
What I DO think about though, is keeping up with my health, blood work, and whatever tests I should be having at this point in my life. Things I did take seriously before, but not quite as seriously as I should have.
It's definitely something to think about, whether or not you have ever had this particular diagnosis. Had a colonoscopy lately?